the unknown is so darn scary

I have been told many times, “you must be so excited about all these wine bottles you have to make.”  I nodd a resounding yes but in my mind it has not come to a full realization yet on what has really transpired or what this all really means.  I am very thankful for what has happened so far but I am in a misty fog of thoughts and doubts.  Now that this is the last shipment out this week to finish off the big order of wine bottles I am begining to contemplate. 

This is Mr. Know-it-all, my Mom, and my Aunt Ellen in the background working on one of our shipments last week. 
God is teaching me a big lesson this year about trust.  Well now that I think about it he has been teaching me all my life, ha, ha…..  He wants me to trust in him completely and I know in my heart and head I would be stupid not to, but I just can’t seem to get over the control issue.  All of us want to be in control and want the assurance of the future but that is just not to be.  If I had known 4 years ago when the economy had started to tumble along with all our work that I would be ok, and make it this far, then I wouldn’t have tried as hard.  In other words if I knew the future outcome because we all want to, it wouldn’t have benefited me in the learning process.  But today I sooooooo want to know the future.  Are the bottles going to sell well?  Will Williams-Sonoma buy different products I have to offer?  Will we stay busy enough, etc, etc……..All these questions.  And now I have realized that what I really need to do is obey Jesus and Trust in him and He will lead the way.  And that is just what I will do.  
Two beautiful gifts from God. They are just angels sometimes and terrors at other times, but they are the perfect gift.
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